I was thinking a lot lately about a lot of stuff. Well, actually i am constantly thinking about a lot of things that puzzles me in life no matter about past events or about future happenings, often obsessively. That’s what i do, i am extremely obsess with things that i couldn’t or can’t control.

And this is just one of the things that i often found myself thinking about.

About parents and their kids and about parents favoring a particular child more than the others.

It happens all the time. In fact, i am almost certain that it happens in almost all of the family in the world. Parents are known to prefer one child above others and if the family is a big one where there are like 1/2 a dozen kids or so, sometimes a few lucky siblings gets more praises than the other few siblings in the family. They might not notice it but they are indeed doing it.

I mean, i am living proof and being the middle child adds to the misery. But hey let’s not get into that or this will be end endless anguish rants.

Let it be sufficient that i vow never to follow my parents’ footstep. I vow to treat all my kids (really i am not having more than 2 kids of my own or i’ll kill myself) on the same level of fairness and love them equally. Yes, i am going to be this really spectacular parent that my kids will love me with all their hearts and be the person they look up to, the person they go to in times of happiness and trouble. Above all, i will be the virtue of fairness and equality.

Then the boyfriend and i went and have this conversation in the car that made me do a second take.
 

Me: Hey do you prefer to have a baby boy or girl in the future?
The boyfriend: It doesn’t matter.
Me: Really? I prefer boys.
The boyfriend: What if you have a girl?
 

 

Me: I hope the first is a baby boy then the second child i won’t mind if it’s a girl. Coz i really can’t stand girly girls that loves everything pink and lacy and Hello Kitty stuffs. It’ll be my greatest nightmare if my daughter turns out a bimbo or overly vain or both. Oh god, i can’t imagine how i’ll manage the tantrums she’ll throw! I’m hoping that if my eldest is a boy then maybe my daughter would be more balanced.

So much for fairness and equality…

Ok, what i said might above might what i’m feeling right now but might not be true in the future. It’s just a phase that i’m sure every woman goes through. I’m pretty sure too i’m going to be a kick-ass mother no matter what gender my child is going to be. I mean, i have to go through 9 months of hell for the baby so i’m like hell going to love the baby, be it boy or girl right.

Pray that my baby girl won’t one day see this post and hate me :S