Right now i have so many mixed feeling and thoughts floating my mind it seems to be so over-cluttered, i can’t think straight, physically i’m beaten.

Seriously, have you ever felt like there are so many things going on in your head that you try so hard to concentrate on one single thought for the sake of finding a solution at least to that particular problem among the many but right at the end your mind seems to trail off? It’s like your mind has broken into tiny pieces and fragments of it scattered all over the place lingering just for a moment at the spot before moving on to another…

Like you feel so many feelings all at once that it’s hard to distinguish whether you are sad, guilty, happy, angry, disappointed, frustrated, contented or anything for that matter. Have you ever felt so contented and happy for a moment then all of a sudden it just doesn’t matter anymore and you slip further down into gloomy oblivion just to feel frustrated about everything and everyone around you, then in an instance you are lifted as you chance upon small glimmer of hope so things doesn’t seem so hopeless after all?

By then anxiousness sets in, anticipation sets in and you brace yourself brace your heart for further disappointment and you can’t even recognize what you are feeling anymore.

Have you ever felt so overwhelmed with life that you began to wonder what the point of it all is and you feel that life is so tiring and troublesome?

I’m feeling like that now. Again the familiar tiny voice in my head appears like a long lost friend telling me things i’m afraid to hear, spinning me stories of hopelessness. Knocking on the skull of my head, making it throb with pain more often these days.