Social butterfly i am not. I can’t even schedule lunch with close friends without first cringing in despair and rather reluctantly confirm it’s a date and then over the next few weeks imagine the worst before guiltily deciding to give it a miss.

Sad to say but yes i’m a FFK queen. I can’t help it but i have serious commitment issues. When Mr. Boyfriend and i started to see each other, i made him promise on a 1 year probational period. That’s 1 whole year before going steady which is like totally insane because at that point we were already close friends for 3 years. On top of that i forbade him to use the term “girlfriend” on me and vice versa. Yep, my problem with commitment is way beyond help.

Regretfully, i lost a handful of friends because of this. Each time there’s an outing or gathering i would find an excuse to be excused… on the last minute. As time goes by, friends got tired and started to stray away. Only a persistent and loyal few stuck through the times. To these bunch of friends i salute because if it was me i would sure as hell dumped myself. Haha. But seriously i would. Wtf.

Yet despite still finding it difficult to actually come out and meet, as i got older the urge to catch up with friends got stronger. I don’t know why, maybe it’s like a rule of the universe or something. When you hit 27 you suddenly are compelled for a reunion. And maybe that’s the reason why i have like dozens of reunion invitations in my hand. Even from groups of people i’m not particularly closed to. I can’t in the world understand why am i invited but there you go, it’s the rule of the universe.
 

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I call these reunions “Old People’s Gathering” or to shorten the OPG, a gathering for people who feels awfully matured but yet to hit the big 30. Just this minute i receive yet another message in my facebook asking me to organize one. Did someone bestowed upon me the honor of being OPG’s chairperson without me knowing? Wtf.

I kind of have a love and hate relationship with these kind of gathering. Seriously, what do you talk about after so many years apart? It’s like “Hello, long time no see. I work in XXX now. Nah, i’m still single” and that’s it. What do you talk about after that? It’s really awkward.

Secretly however, i am more than glad to find out that at least someone is not earning as much as i do, grown wider than i did and lost more hair than me in these few years. So, i guess the purpose of such gatherings is to give yourself a well needed boost of self confidence.

I just hope i’m not someone else’s ego booster.

Whatever it is, it is inevitable. I have a small OPG this weekend. I pray that i won’t panicked and start ffk-ing everybody. But moreover i pray that there is someone with a bigger love handle and flabbier ‘bai-bai’ hand than i have.