Emo queen, i am… coz i feel lousy…

(anyone who doesn’t wan to be bored to death please stop reading)

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All i wanted was some love and support from the people… the only people… i’ve got, but i got shut down and called a blamer. It’s already hard as it is not being able to express some things that i sometimes feel is irrelevant or shameful of. But it’s even harder when there is no empathy when i do not express myself.

A person whom always put on a happy face or ‘slumber’ face and doesn’t complaint bout what a terrible day she/he had in front of everyone doesn’t means that she/he doesn’t care and have worries. It’s funny how a person could take another person for granted…

It’s difficult to explain to people who do not understand coz they really… do not understand. So i chose to keep it to myself. Sometimes doing the best just isn’t enough…
 

I was a scapegoat
I had to leave
No where to go, but still i had to
I look high
I look low
Only to meet ‘rejection’
I look some more
Everything everywhere
Only to meet ‘sarcasms’
Too meaty?
Too old?
Too not-geekish?
Too not-funky?
Too outdated?
Just to be proven that i am not still a young thing
If only i’d be given a chance
If only…
Lost
I longed for love
I longed for support
But there is none
Only to be called worthless
Only to be called useless
Does people know it’s not my choice?
No i guess not
It’s my own fault
Ok
Right
So i resign to my bed
Emo
Trying to sleep my troubles away
Contemplating the bleak future ahead

Call me self centered or a blamer, victim-ese… only god knows, i know and the maybe another… kinda knows…
 

There. I’m done emo-ing.